The Stirring

Today David and I were both able to make it to The Stirring church today!  I went solo last week due to David having to be at work.  We have been talking about going for quite a while now and have just been putting it off, or always have something come up or have been to tired to get out of bed to be there by 9am!  My friends that go there have been encouraging us to try it out and have been patiently waiting for us to join them.  Last week I told them no if and's or buts we are going to make it.  Well Davids job was requiring him to be at work and I am not one to just go try something new all alone.  Especially since it was the time change and loosing an hr of sleep.  But I told myself I am going to do this, and David encouraged me to go.  So i drug myself and the kids out of bed and made it pretty much on time!  And I am glad I went.  Madison came home singing songs she has learned in church and had a great time.  This week David was able to come as well.  I feel passion for life and God coming back into my life and I am so excited to have this feeling again.  I feel like my relationship with God has been dead for quite a while now because we really haven't had a church that felt like home to us.  Bethel has just become way to big for us, and it has been really hard for us to connect with other families and have that community feel.  After going two times to The Stirring I already feel passion, and apart of a family!  It is just the type of church we have been looking to be apart of and raise our kids up in.  I have already signed up to attend the woman's retreat next sat and David was able to go to the mens breakfast yesterday and enjoy some guy time.  So Thank you Julie Read and Anna Anna Moseley for giving me that little push to try it out and making us apart of everything!  I am so excited to serve God with you guys and be apart of everything.  I am excited to meet new people, and for Madison to learn about God with her friends.

On another note, Anna has been inspiring me to be creative and get organized with my house.  She gave me all these ideas from her blog.  You should check it out and be inspired as well!

I had so much fun making this floral arrangement.  It cost me about $12 to make it and and what I love about it is that I can change the flowers out for whatever season it is.

This is going to be a gum ball/candy jar for Madison.  Check it out Here to see how to make it.  I cant wait to see it finished!  I will be using this for her reward jar :)

Love having my jewelery organized!  I need to get another one.

This is David's cousin Sarah's Family along with Davids Parents.  They were headed down to Disneyland and stopped by to say hello.  Madison wasn't to thrilled to be taking a picture, but I am so glad we got one!  Thanks for visiting us guys!

Mackenzie with papa....at 13 weeks

Madison vs Mackenzie 3 at 3 months

So tonight I was going through some old pictures and found some of Madison at the age that Mackenzie is now. I seriously made the SAME baby!!!!!!! I cant believe it. These pictures were taken down in San Diego when Bekah got married in 2008. Madison was 3 months old. Check it out :) Oh and i have to add that tonight Mackenzie did her first laugh with daddy while he was tickling her. SOoooooooooo cute!

This is Mackenzie

Madison at 3 months

The pictures may not justify it as much, but if you have been around her in person you should be able to see what i mean!

TIRED

Wow, today was a hard day. Probably one of my hardest since I've had Mackenzie. For the past week my body hasn't felt right. I made a dish that I loved and the next morning it came right up and now I am disgusted to even think about it. Since then I have lost my appetite, and have lost a few pounds because of it. Every time I have a meal it doesnt seem to agree with my stomach. Not sure if its an allergy to dairy or wheat or what the heck is going on with me...maybe its just my hormones who knows. On top of not feeling well with low energy with the lack of food and nursing, I am exhausted! Why, because I have a 3 month old and a almost 3 year old and one of them wakes up 2-3 times a night and the other at 7am!

So today I just hit the point of IM SO FREAKING TIRED! I'm tired of the screaming, tired of Madison not listening, tired of not feeling good, tired of my headaches, tired of a husband who works 24/7, tired of cleaning the house up, and the list goes on. It's been a really hard day filled with lots and lots of tears. My poor Madison doesn't really understand why mommy is so sad and it broke my heart to be so worn out that I just laid on the couch crying and watching her play all by herself happy as can be. Tonight as i was saying goodnight to her I thanked her for being so good, and that I was sorry for being so sad today. She replies "mommy ill take care of you", and pats me on the back so lovingly. (tears)

At the end of the day I look at my beautiful girls in aw of how beautiful and cute they are and how they are worth it all. Its so hard to be in the moment of anger during the day and think but man your so cute. Thank God that he give us those moments to remind us how special they are.

Heres to a better day tomorrow!

Rainy Day

Since I have been on my facebook fast I have been trying to be more mindful of my time spent with Madison. She is so great at playing by herself that I tend spend my time on the computer while she plays or watches a show. It's my outlet. I know this hasn't been a good thing seeing that this is why I am home so I can play with her, and do things around the house. I will admit even while on my facebook fast I am guilty of spending too much time on the computer! So today I made it a point to do something fun with her, and what could be more fun then play-doh on a rainy wet day. Right now I am working with her on learning her letters and numbers. She is a fast learner and I'm sure in no time she will have this down! We have been reading 3 different Dr. Seuss book and by now she can practically read them to herself by memory and by looking at the pictures. It's so cute. I think his book are my favorite to read with her.

So I've been thinking I need to come up with more fun creative things to do with her, so if you have any ideas please share!

On another note, I have pretty much taken away her pull-up!!!!!! She has gone 2 days in a row and made it to morning dry. She even wakes up let let us know she has to go pee, which is awesome! My main reason for taking them away was that she is going backwards in going #2 in the toilet. She knows she can do it and isn't scared anymore, she is just getting lazy about it. So when I saw her trying to go in her pull-up, I took it away and said NO MORE PULL-UP's!!!!!!!!!!! Hopefully this will be the thing to break it and get us out of the diaper world for her.

Miss Mackenzie is 12 weeks as of yesterday! Wow time flies even faster with her. She is a much happier baby now that her tummy issues are starting to handle them selves. Its so cute when she smiles and makes her cute little noises. Madison loves to get in her face and say "HI HI HI HI" to try to get her to smile. I think she is close to the point of getting her laugh, which I am SOOOOoooooo excited for! Every time I see her smile it makes me want more. On the other hand when I'm dealing with both of them crying at the same time I'm thinking to myself how can I have more.....hahahaha.